Dear all,

Below is my January posting.  Enjoy...:)  
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"Noke Noi" 


Where is my "Noke Noi"?
I do not know.
I am sobbingly tormented
The outer grief cannot possibly
Be shown to express my inner, shattered world
The lament tears out from every corner of my troubling heart
As I unlocked the door to shockingly find no site of you
Cold and dark I could still feel the shiver
What happened to my "Noke Noi"?
I do not know.
Laboring 12 hours a day I never dare to complaint
All I wanted was the best for you, for us
You don't know how hard it is to work in a cluttery, filthy place
I don't have many choices with the broken English that I speak  
Don't you know how hard it is to make ends meet?   Don't you know?
I have been busy and you have been fussy
The love we once shared you no longer cherish
Fifteen years full of meanings now becomes meaningless
I have tried my very best to get you back
But I guess it was too late to stop your change of heart
The wind flew you away without leaving any familiar trace
Your being not here made me release my painful tears 
I often wish this is just one of those bad dreams
For when morning comes mourning will disappear
But it is here for a long stay you see
Worn is my body
Torn is my heart.
How long until it heals?
I do not know, my only "Noke Noi.".


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